Thursday, April 26, 2001

04-26-2001

im selling my life on ebay. or at least the parts i dont need.

buy me now.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 8:27 am  

Monday, April 23, 2001

04-23-2001

so there is a new layout here now. i like the colors much better now. softer, less horror-show.

hope you enjoy them and the lack of updates. i swear, im trying.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 8:34 am  

Tuesday, April 10, 2001

04-10-2001

it didnt rain this weekend. we did more than we would normally do. i didnt have to wear a jacket, i even wore shorts.

to its credit, ohio has nice air. chicago seemed stuffy, even with its constant little breeze. nothing like ohio where things are clear; you get rain, snow, or beautiful clean air.

last year i decided to start golfing. three times out, all three times were entertaining. stories to be told last winter. this sunday we played for the first time this season. beautiful clean air, sleepy white clouds hiding the sun enough to take the glare aware.

in golf, your goal should be to win. mine currently is to lose as few balls as possible while enjoying the weather, the landscape, and the other golfers taking things much more seriously than i ever could.

relaxing, beautiful clean air. wash away petty problems.

all of this, i realize again as i always have before, is payback to patience.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 8:35 am  

Sunday, March 18, 2001

03-18-2001

a month has passed since the last update. not much has changed in that month.

i still hold on to this idea that my life is going to be very short. i dont know where this comes from. its not a fear as much as it is law.

always lingering no matter the mood.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:20 am  

Thursday, February 8, 2001

02-08-2001

started doing some things with swanky again. feels good to look at that project in a new way. something fresh. new voices, new ideas.

sena and alise are back. gone way too long.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:23 am  

Monday, February 5, 2001

02-05-2001

when i cant sleep, i do laundry.

ozma and lipton iced tea. ok go and jones cherry soda.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:24 am  

Sunday, February 4, 2001

02-04-2001

so i guess that prediction of dedication was a bit far-fetched. even when my family is away and im all alone at 4am i still cant find a sentence worth sharing with you.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:25 am  

Tuesday, January 16, 2001

01-16-2001

started writing again. not sure how long it will last but i thought id give it a try. have some new projects these days. nothing really exciting, but it keeps me busy. thats all i care to be right now – busy.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:27 am  

Monday, January 15, 2001

01-15-2001

its cold and it snows and its beautiful.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:28 am  

Tuesday, December 12, 2000

12-12-2000

oh, its been a while. but i havent really done anything. nothing new to show in so long. nothing new to do in so long.

she keeps growing and i keep getting older. ive never felt so unalive with so much vitality right beside me. how do you explain this mood?

im not sure where i get this attitude. whoever gave it to me is welcome to take it back. everyday i wonder, “is this my last?”. when did i step away from being able to see past such silliness. when did this drama become my life.

its not like im trying something new here. routine album on repeat. i used to try things for me. now i try to not be noticed. nothing changed and i think that is the problem.

its not them, they are wonderful. its not even me, i feel fine. something else, someone else. inside out. on the outside looking in. feeding off the quiet pauses in between.

posted by Dustin Vannatter at 9:33 am  
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