i havent been reading much recently. i havent been doing much of anything.

ive decided it would be best for me to work on exercising more. if it was easier, id do it more often. but these things take time and planning. both of which im horrible at managing.

i miss tyler a lot. so does sena. sometimes we act like he is here, and hiding. we sneak around and call his name, checking under furniture and behind doors.

what was i saying about social events again?

we went walking the other day.

it was cold outside, but it made me remember to keep things focused.

focused is hard to do, when things are changing. i bought diapers today, that was something new.

mom called, she said all was well. i wanted to return the message, but things have been messy. oh life.

“time told me once this story about growing older in the city.. it tok him almost three hours.”

‘i wasnt there. but youve mentioned this before, michael.’

“then i thought it wasnt such an event. then i thought we knew each other. i didnt think i had that much to learn about him or the others.”

‘but..’

“but i was wrong. time was watching me cry that night, and i was wrong.”

‘so what now? where do we go?’

“back to my place. i need to talk to someone.”

“too much baklava.”

‘too much baklava?’

“yup, it killed him.”

‘damn greeks.’

i bought a package of series one garbage pail kids the other day for four dollars.

to relive my childhood i quickly peeled them all, ate the wrapper, and stuck them all over a wal-mart trapper keeper which i later left in the childrens clothes aisle.

my cubicle is brown and tan.

i miss the window, i miss a lower floor.

at least im not in a basement. i guess thats a plus.

we love our new microwave. we finally bought one.

the only thing is, i dont really use it. i have to buy more food now to make it useful, which just results in more monthly costs.

we walked down to the ski slope here today. the snow was melting as kids tried to dance over the slopes.

we smiled and headed through the woods.

“hey man, you gonan finish that?”

‘i just got it. so..’

“well if you dont, give it to me. i eat anything.”

‘ill remember that.’

i tore some muscles somtime this week. they hurt in my stomach, and i have to squirm every few minutes to ignore the pain. i toss at night when i try to sleep, and when im not sleeping im complaining. what a week.

the chicago auto show is coming next week, hopefully i will get a chance to go. hopefully this pain will go away.

sena has a doctor appointment sometime this week. im not exactly sure when. the doctor told us she is in her 27th week now. i dont think there are too many weeks left.