i wouldnt know you today if you told me who you were. i doubt id even be interested enough to listen.

cant sleep but being awake is even harder. eyes floating without a purpose.

hidden discussions share that same old rhythm. repeated and reapplied.

id have pictures but i burned them. id have letters but i returned them.

so, sharon should be married now. i only wish her the best in everything, she really deserves the best of this world.

a friend gave me a book to read, i havent had the time just yet.

its going to snow this weekend. ive got to get ready for that. my knee aches and the weather changes. so many patterns in my little life.

“the neighbors have cute little halloween wreaths on their doors. shouldnt we do that as well?”
‘i dont know. should we?’
“i think so.”
‘what about just a cross. hung upside down. thats scary.’
“not exactly what i was thinking.”

i wanted to go to all of the haunted houses this year, but its a week into the season and i havent even looked through the paper to find the listings. im sure there is a website somewhere, but i just dont feel like bothering google or jeeves. they take enough crap as it is.

i crumbled this weekend and bought a CD burner. i was hoping i could avoid this fate, but the urge of making my own CDs for people was just too much. let me know if you want one for christmas.

new digital camera too. canon powershot s20. very nice and not too expensive. this just means more recent photos of alise will be popping up shortly.

sena and i leave for vegas tomorrow. ive never been but ive heard stories. staying at the aladdin. up for the wrox conference thing. ive got my wardrobe all set.

its getting cold. that just means i think more about the past. friends forgotten. feelings faded. read some news, hear a story. i was at the mall and saw a girl wearing a letterman jacket from my high school. left sleeve branded ’04’. being part of ’95’ makes me wonder where the numbers in between have gone so quickly.

the new jtb album is constantly in rotation now. have to wear it through.

dreamcast and MLB2K1 every night.

box learning works.

these are choppy at best. daily images will be the next thing. lets see how i can do this with minimal work involved.

im still 23. thanks for those few who said hello and happy day. that was rather nice.

i moved some old files yesterday, old journals from 97. i cant believe ive been doing this crap online that long. its scary, i should try to get out more.

i was out a lot this weekend. people in the hospital and the such.

this is me but not anymore.

so this is something a bit different i guess. i dont know if this will work or not, but i thought id try.

its been a while for me. in general everything seems to have sped up and slowed down at the same time. certain things move fast. others seem to never move forward.

have i mentioned where i am now? you probably know. a lot has not changed.

tomorrow im 23.

i started looking at different places to hold a event again, but i havent found much yet. sena and i are going to ikea today to look at chairs and tables and things. weve decided we need to suck it in and buy some things to fill our apartment. (ok, she decided this a long time ago, and i finally just gave in.)

ikea has a lot of things. and it is always packed. i mean, mall-like packed. three floors or something. with people everywhere. most of these people drives saabs or land rovers. im told its that swedish/off-shore effect.

they have some really nice rugs. id like a nice rug.

everyone i know is going to see wing commander, but not for the movie. if i was this movie, i would be sad. half of the audience will most likely leave after the star wars trailer plays. the other half are just stubborn and plan to torture themselves with a thin plotline and bad acting based on a cheesy video game just to get their ‘moneys worth.’

quicktime was enough for me. real video doesnt hold shit on QT.

fuck streaming, i like quality.

i got a video from BMW today. its a ‘welcome to the family’ sort of deal. i havent taken the time to read it yet, maybe this weekend.

my cousins will be coming in this evening. actually my cousin and her husband. they are staying with us until morning when they are flying out of midway to florida. i wish i was going to florida.

taber is flying in on wednesday. hes never been to chicago.

ive heard there is a big problem with kids ordering booze on the internet. seventeen, eighteen year-olds with credit cards drinking it up in parents basements and shoe-size dorm rooms across the country.

all i can say is, i wish i would have had that technology then.